What you missed?

 Dear blog

it's been 5 long years since i wrote to you. A lot of has changed. i come back to you an adult. A girl who has lost her child like wonder, someone more rooted in reality.

 

it's been a difficult 5 years of so many losses. Mom is gone so is Emily, i lost  a few core friendships but i guess that comes with the territory of growing up. i lost my idealism, my steel optimism, my dream of saving of saving the world and everyone. i now hide under the skirt of nihilism, my faith and hopes are bruised, i stuck in the the cycle of breaking and healing, breaking and healing. isn't that adulthood?

 

But it's not all bad, we all lose our charms and innocence in the end and we all have to meet the hard life our parents told us about. i am okay you know, all this breaking and fixing is making me stronger and braver. I'm turning into someone who can handle herself, someone who can live life and live in this world. something that can exist here.

 

despite it all, i'm still kind, still trying to have a positive attitude and trying to find hope for the future. 

 

now you may ask what will this blog be about now?  the usual darling books, art reviews, things i'm excited about, poems, life lessons and all that. who knows? maybe more in the future. i will you around.

xx

Dailess