Making Peace

i used to hate my body for the things it wasn't

for how it didn't look like

i think a part of me still does

i hated how some parts were big when they needed to small

and how some parts were small when they needed to big

i hated how it was flat in places that shouldn't be flat and was protruding in places that should be flat

i looked at other women with envy, with their flat stomachs, protruding hips, defined waist lines and normal sized breasts 

and so i asked my body, "why don't you look like that?"

"because of you i don't feel beautiful, because of you i avoid mirrors because all i see is disappointment not beauty."

but something inside me has changed

a seed of self love and self acceptance has been planted inside of me 

and it's blooming uncontrollably 

i'm learning to accept my body as it is

i'm learning to embrace my own kind of beautiful

with it's folds,protruding stomach and apple shape 

i love you as you are

well atleast i'm learning to

i'm learning that they don't get to decide what's beautiful and what's not

not the magazines, the men and those cat callers who thought they had every right to tell you  how they wished you were different.

i want to make peace with you

i want your forgiveness 

for the longest time i stored nothing but hate in you

i treated you terribly

but i realise now that i can't hate you into something i'll love one day

Self-Acceptance

Self-Love

Self-Care

i love you just the way you are

and from now on, i'll try to treat  you as you are, Sacred.

i will take care of you, give you rest, feed you right, water you constantly

decorate you with flowers, silver and gold ornaments

i will not allow hate, anger, bitterness and self hate to make a home in you

i will not allow people to store their frustrations in you

i will not let anyone ruin you, not even me

i will give you peace

i will give you rest 

shower you with love

you are my home and my hiding places

from now one, i will try my very best to make peace with you